I'm very upset. I started posting my original story called The Affair on a website that is a place for authors and writers to go and share their work...well I went back to it the website, thinking it will be a good idea. I was wrong! I have a few followers and Daphne who I know is never mean and is always nice and a friend from high school who I talk to all the time by text and we are still good friends.
Well tonight I posted the fourth part to the story and read the replies to my story. And I'm upset. Because one person I follow, read all the parts(that are up so far)then said that she thought the story was pretty good and then had the balls-the freaking balls! TO ask me if I based my ORIGINAL story on a disney movie!!!!!!!!
I'm so upset right now! And want to cry and give up writing forever! And I hate feeling this way!!!!!
And I don't know how old this person is just know from their icon that they are a chick. And I have overcome so much threw the past year, to be able to sit at my computer or write in a notebook and not been in pain or be depressed to the point that I want to kill myself.....and that happened in August last year I got so bad with my depression that I begged Josh to help me and told him and my mom I needed to go to hospital or I was going to kill myself that day...
And now I just feel so upset. And depressed and not over the depression since it got bad, Because I was on a non-brand name antibiotic that I have her taken before and had a bad side effect to it and the side effect was I got really badly depressed, felt down all the time and wanted to kill myself! So I called my doctor the other day and told him about this(he is like my therapist but gives me meds for my depression and anxiety problem)and I told him what was going on and it was so bad I was crying my eyes out while talking to him on the phone and I never call him unless it's a bad and I can't handle it on my own...
He told me to stop taking it(I had been on the stuff for like six or seven days by this point)and then said tell someone if I feel
not okay and call your doctor in the morning first thing. And before we hung up he told me he would be in the office the next day between the hours of 8:30 to 9;30 am.
And I just want to cry. And this happening reminds me that NOT everyone in the world is nice and sweet..and that people suck and it is why I hate society and just don't like people in general and like cats better over the human race.
And I have to confess something I feel bad about. Josh is not my husband. We are engaged to be married and it just has not happened yet. But plan to marry in the future sometime. But we will together and his brother with us. To help with bills and such..
Since I can't work because of my health stuff and learning disabilities and having CP.
I don't know what else to say. I want someone to talk to. But I don't know where to go.
p.s:I wish someone was on I could talk to!